Do I Really Want To Be An Actor?

Hey Pharaohs,

After spending over 5 years obsessed with acting and thinking there is nothing that will ever steer me away from it…well, I don’t know, I’m finding myself falling out of love with acting. I guess I’m a bit burnt out with the whole auditioning and call backs with limited bookings. I really hate the lack of control in the whole acting field. I mean, let’s be honest. The system is made for you to fail. Think about it. For instance if you live in LA these are the things you must accomplish just to be remotely in the playing field:

1. Live in a major city such as Los Angeles
2. Be available all day in case of last minute auditions or bookings
3. Work all evening just to pay your sky high rent
4. If you can’t afford your sky high rent, share a studio with someone splitting it with a curtain
5. Take acting classes during the day which is really your night
6. Get headshots, be active online, rehearsals, mailings the list never ever ends!

These are just a few points as to why it’s almost impossible to make it in Hollywood unless you know someone. I’ve seen it done but it’s not easy. The other thing that lacks control is this analogy I came up with.
If I take a test, and I get all the answers right. I pass the test, right? Right!
If I go to an audition and I do EVERYTHING right, I book the gig, right? Wrong!
There are way too many variables. I remember one time I went in with children to do an audition and my actor kid started crying, welp, there goes that gig. I didn’t even get to audition properly bc the kid wouldn’t participate. There was another time not too long ago where I was up for the lead part against another girl. I was likely to get it because I had a stronger social media following. After weeks of auditioning etc, etc. Guess who they chose? None of us! They went in a “different direction” which to me is suspect of a sugar baby but what do I know. In any case, I love to act, I’m a heavily trained actress, in the union and I have experience under my belt as well as other credentials. But I just found that growing my social media presence has garnered me more attention, bookings and stability then constant auditions that usually lead to no where. So now, I feel like a website is more necessary than ever. I feel I need more control over my career and life and although social media hasn’t been great for my relationships, it is certainly a God send for businesses of all sorts. Especially entrepreneurs. 🙂 Tomorrow I’m going to write a follow up on what my goals are and what my “peeves” are with today’s actors and social media coupled with a vlog rant I did two weeks ago 🙂

If you are an actor, I want to know, Do you ever feel like this isn’t for you even after a lot of time and effort has been put into it? If you stopped acting to do something else, is it a path that you found on the way to your acting career, because that is the transition I’m going through now.

Just to clarify, I don’t want to quit acting per se, I just want to change my approach in it, and that is heavily influenced by social media 🙂


8 thoughts on “Do I Really Want To Be An Actor?

  1. Good info here, and glad you shared it. Like me you have gone through alot and continue to in order to get a foot hold and it is great that you have shared your journey to others who maybe experiencing the same. Including the importance of understanding Social Media.


  2. Hey Sarah!

    I feel you, girl. It’s hard and sometimes frustrating. It saddens me that having a “strong social media following” is becoming more important than actual acting training and commitment to the job.

    But if you love that you do you gotta keep trying, right?

    Hope the wheels will turn for you though 🙂

  3. Hey Sarah!

    Like your blog! I am not into acting, but I work with marketing for movies. So, for me it was very interesting to hear your insights and opinion about the whole business. Oh I think it must be extremely hard to really get the part and hit the big time. LA is a city of million opportunities, but there is an extensive competition as well. I’m wishing you good luck with your upcoming auditions. Who knows maybe one day I will work on marketing a movie with you being in it.)))

  4. Sarah, I agree with a lot of the points you had made about this industry. I’m an actor myself, and it’s true that most of the times it’s about who you know as oppose to if one has a real talent. But all and all, if it’s a craft that you love, you should go for it, and make it happen.

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